lately

i need to learn to trust the Lord more.

Lord have mercy on me.

spring

I have so much love to give.
Spring is in the air and love has come with it.

It makes me feel so alive.

I hope for the best and i'm learning what it means to live day by day.

I want the park right now. alot. all day everyday. Especially this park...



We are almost done with a record. I am so anxious over it.

Im tired. Im going to fall asleep tonight smiling...

just say something

jeff and casey and casey and linsey and michelle all see me walk around without a shirt on sometimes.

this really is a funny thing. also a super sexy babe thing.


duh.

life is good.

for them its even better.

update.

got a girl, motorcycle, and some free dumpster food.(alot of it. a ton)

more to come!!

this summer

there has been alot of dancing and nonsense.

the gorge show

recently

I have had so many amazing adventures. In Winnipeg, Noah and I rode bikes for hours. We rode into downtown winnipeg and through the rain and had great talks and saw amazing record stores etc. Downtown Winnipeg was real beautiful with some older parts of the downtown. Bill Cosby was playing the next week.

Then yesterday we played in the gorge. It's like Red Rocks but in the middle of Washington State. 3 hours from Seattle and 3 hours fro Spokane. Its on the ridge of these hugge cliffs and right above a massive river that cuts through the state. Jake and I hiked 3 miles into the canyon and all the way to the river. It was truly amazing. The hike was alot harder than we had thought and even at some times a little overwhelming. Here are a few pictures of bbq at the bus around the Gorge and also some good scenic views.

home in 10 days.

my summer so far

all of these were taken by my good buddy josh goleman. He came out and hung out at our long island show last week sometime. It was a blast having him around and he took some great pictures. Here is basically my life everyday







more to come.

last night i thought alot

it has been almost a month since i updated this last.
i always come back to certain things. some of them i wish i didn't, some of them i know i should'nt, but i do.
the life i live is such a fake reality. It is life happening 110% always, flying at and right past me. This life is such a lie. I come away from this and life has not skipped a beat. But yet i'm a little more behind. Lost a few more friends. Without a little more love. Farther and farther from the life i truly want to live. but what do i know anymore... only this.

I never realized how things I am doing can really hurt people and it tears me apart.
I don't even know what else to say. I really am trying but cant find the words.

7 am and i'm in the hills of pennsylvania watching the sun come over the tree line. this is what i will turn to today. the trees, the wind, the sun, my breath.

a year from now I really feel like things will be very different.

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im in denver and you are not here.

im walking the streets looking at highway signs for the springs.

i dont like this. one bit.

warped tour so far

gallows video shoot

Robby and I got to be apart of this over in London in September. I miss that trip alot.

this was one of the funest days ever.

Escpecially how they hired private buses to take us all from London to 2 hours out in the countryside. I still feel for the drivers of those buses. They hated there lives.

hahahahah

oh man

my mind is racing.

ive got so many ideas.

thank the Lord for my brain. thank him so much.

things are good.

this 22 year is going to be a good one.

thanks for everything sir.


thanks for everything mam.

tonite

whiskey breathed men and women. must have been 2 packs if not 3. reds.
a guitar.

streelights and broken bottles.

the heat was intense. it might have been only me. the thoughts through my head could have knocked me over.

we sat there for hours.

i love this place he said. im taking it as it comes. i liked that. im going to use it when people as me about my day. my life. my week.

im taking it as it comes.

thats all I really know.

the ups the downs. the thoughts. the talks. the nights the days the mornings.

ask me when it all comes down what I really think.

i have no idea,

philly wanted it so here it is.

beachhh and NC

the beach was way fun.

im excited for summer. and the sun. and sweet tea and lemonade.

stoked

speed street this weekend downtown charlotte.

friday night -kellie pickler
saturday night-travis tritt

i love the south and nascar.

as of recently

i have been home and it has been so nice.
except now im not home anymore. im in Carborro, Nc for 2 days.
it is so nice here. i want to live here now. really badly.

i have simply been enjoying peoples company as of recently and it feels right.

it feels like something i always want. Just sitting and talking and listening.

i love the people i love and the people who love me.

i have a crazy brain i realized but its ok. i like it that way.

i just slept the latest i have slept since i have been home. I had been having problems sleeping and waking up eveery 3 hours etc. last night i slept in my car outside a bakery and just slept till 1130am. it feels great. best sleep ve had since ive been home.

im being taught so much. its an overload. im learning and trying to be patient and wise. im learning to trust and to live and not worry.

these are things i will always struggle with but as of recently learning to trust is so hard. i want to control and make everything right. thats not what happens and thats not reality. i have to accept that.

i want people to see what i see and how it makes sense. but they dont. they might never. some might. others might just want to throw up. i dont know.

im getting better and better at living alone. i dont know what this means but i just know that when im completely by myself nothing bothers me. nothing. i dont think about clothes or showers or food or friends or what to do. i just sit and watch and think. i think i need to travel by myself for a year.

the whole world for a year and go where i go. let the Lord lead me.

thats what i will do.

"its time to march. let us sing and let us dance, let us throw our hands in the air and rejoice. is this not what we thought? is this not why we smile? is this not why we live? lets dance, lets sing, lets rejoice."

tour is over

i have celebrated by tattoing and this video,

i love this.

Sometimes

I hate how planned out my life is.

Here is my life untill August 20.

May/June

May
6th -Fly into Nashville
8th - Be out of my house and into a storage unit.
11th- head to NC
12th- Colour Revolt & Snowden in Chapel Hill
13th- Drive By Truckers @ Cats Cradle
14th- Drive by Truckers @ Cats Cradle
15th- Drive By Truckers @ Music Farm in SC
16th-18th Beach Weekend with the Crew
19th- Head back to Nashville
22nd- 24th- NYC and Philly
25th- 30th- NC for Mom's Graduation and Recording and Hanging.
June
1st- 14th Nashville Time
14- ATL for Norma Jean Pre-Production

June 16- August 20. Warped Tour.