last night i thought alot

it has been almost a month since i updated this last.
i always come back to certain things. some of them i wish i didn't, some of them i know i should'nt, but i do.
the life i live is such a fake reality. It is life happening 110% always, flying at and right past me. This life is such a lie. I come away from this and life has not skipped a beat. But yet i'm a little more behind. Lost a few more friends. Without a little more love. Farther and farther from the life i truly want to live. but what do i know anymore... only this.

I never realized how things I am doing can really hurt people and it tears me apart.
I don't even know what else to say. I really am trying but cant find the words.

7 am and i'm in the hills of pennsylvania watching the sun come over the tree line. this is what i will turn to today. the trees, the wind, the sun, my breath.

a year from now I really feel like things will be very different.

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im in denver and you are not here.

im walking the streets looking at highway signs for the springs.

i dont like this. one bit.

warped tour so far

gallows video shoot

Robby and I got to be apart of this over in London in September. I miss that trip alot.

this was one of the funest days ever.

Escpecially how they hired private buses to take us all from London to 2 hours out in the countryside. I still feel for the drivers of those buses. They hated there lives.

hahahahah

oh man

my mind is racing.

ive got so many ideas.

thank the Lord for my brain. thank him so much.

things are good.

this 22 year is going to be a good one.

thanks for everything sir.


thanks for everything mam.

tonite

whiskey breathed men and women. must have been 2 packs if not 3. reds.
a guitar.

streelights and broken bottles.

the heat was intense. it might have been only me. the thoughts through my head could have knocked me over.

we sat there for hours.

i love this place he said. im taking it as it comes. i liked that. im going to use it when people as me about my day. my life. my week.

im taking it as it comes.

thats all I really know.

the ups the downs. the thoughts. the talks. the nights the days the mornings.

ask me when it all comes down what I really think.

i have no idea,

philly wanted it so here it is.